If You Stare at me with those Pitiful Eyes One More Time I'm Gonna...You can Fill in the Blanks Yourself!

Many of you may think I am on this Twilight kick, and to a point I am. But there is just something about Edward's face that reminds me of me when I am angry. He's just got that look of "Don't mess with me or you will get hurt" aka the "Sadorus Glare." This is exactly how I feel right now. I would say I am doing better with the whole Brady thing, much much better. I don't think about him as often I'm dating different boys a little bit. I feel like I am moving on, slowly but surely. Each day gets better. However, when I see things that remind me of him it can be hard, especially when I see him. I am back up at school and so is he. I actually saw him the first week of school. I saw him before he saw me and I thought of so many things I could do. I could ignore him, say hi to him, flip him off(which is something I don't really do but you will understand why I feel like doing it in a minute), but I decided to make eye contact with him and say hi. So that is what I did. He was on the phone and so luckily it was a quick almost painless passing. After the fact, I did pretty good. I wasn't hurting too bad. Another day, I was booking it up to the Rick's building (top of campus and I live at the bottom) when I looked up and there he was walking ahead of me on the phone again. I decided this time I didn't want to see him so I stayed behind him until he turned right to go to the Austen building. Flash forward to this morning, I'm walking home from my first class, I'm in the MC building when BAM there he is AGAIN! :( Of course we made eye contact again. I just gave him the "cool nod" if you will. If you don't know what that is I'll show you later..hehe. And he just looks back at me with THOSE EYES!!!! I hate it when people pity me! There is a time and a place for it. I know we all have our days when we throw our own little pity party and we tell people. But this is not what I am doing. I just can't take it anymore. I want him to smile at me or something...SOMETHING OTHER THAN THAT STUPID LOOK! I don't need or want his pity. I just want him to acknowledge me as a person and move on to his class. It is almost like he thinks I am still pining for him and so he feels bad. I guess it could also be that he feels bad for what he did to me. AS HE SHOULD, but he doesn't need to show me every time we lock eyes. He can shove his sorries in a sack! I almost want to flip him off next time I see him, just to see a different reaction on his face than that stupid pity! AUHHH! Breathe Breathe...
Anyway, this is how I am feeling right now, and I'm starting to realize when I am angry, I need to start writing or typing my feelings out. I feel A LOT better when I do that. So thank you for letting me vent. Don't worry I won't really flip him off, it isn't my style...but a girl can dream can't she? :) Sorry, hopefully my posts won't always be so negative. I'll try to think of something positive for my next one! :)
P.S. Thanks to Edward for being my brilliant example of angry eyes..
Peaceout Peeps!

ENOUGH! I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!!

Some of you may be looking at the title of my post and this marvelous picture of Edward and be thinking that I've had enough of Twilight. But alas, that is not the case. I'm still loving it. My reason for putting this picture up is to show how mad I am. Sparkly Edward Cullen is giving my angry eyes and face for me because you can't see me right now. :)

I've had enough of stupid roommates! I am living with five girls and all of them don't follow the rules up here, they talk about and do inappropriate things all the time whether a guy is at the apartment or not, they say awkward things to people, and they have no respect for authority figures. My room has become my sanctuary, as has my books.

I can only take so much! I know that I should be getting out and doing things, but truly I don't really have any friends up here. It is slowly starting to get better that way. I am meeting more people in the ward. So slowly I am making more friends, but I can't even really bring those friends to my apartment because of the risk. We have what you call an Honor Code here, so we have rules to follow. Here are a few of the rules: Be home by curfew, no being in the apartment with a guy alone, and NO boys in bedrooms. You'd think these rules would be fairly easy to follow, but no. All my roommates have done one or more of these things more than one time. I know we are free to make our own choices, but when their choices affect whether or not I feel comfortable in my own apartment where I live and pay rent too, it is just too much.

One time, my visiting teachers came over, and my roommates were watching Titanic, and of course it was around the awkward scenes. And then, they wouldn't even turn it down so I could hear my visiting teachers. Then another time, it was Karen's b-day(roommate) and her, Alice, and Viki are all really good friends. Karen got fake tattoos for her b-day. I think that is fine, no big deal right? Wrong! They started putting them in awkward places while a boy is sitting on the couch watching them do it. YIKES! Last night, Karen asked my FHE brother if he had chap stick. He said he had some at home, but that obviously wouldn't help her then. She then said, "oh well do you have any on your lips right now?" And he said "yeah, I could just wipe it off with my finger," and she said "that's not how I wanted to get it." They are ridiculous.

Then on Sunday, I had my home teachers come over to teach me. One's name is Joel, and the other one's name is Kevin (very cute by the way) And so he comes in and we sit at the counter to have the lesson because my roommates are sitting on all the couches. So then Kevin is asking me all these questions trying to get to know me, and my roommates keep interrupting. First they ask him if he is roommates with Brad, because apparently my roommates know Brad and they don't like him. And then they ask Kevin, "Oh, didn't you date Lindsey Nielsen??" This is while we are trying to get to know each other and have a spiritual lesson!! I guess this Lindsey hurt him. She wasn't very nice to him and so them bringing it up made it awkward for him..I WAS SO MAD! When they left, I basically chased them out the door and apologized for how awkward it was. Kevin accepted the apology and told me it wasn't my fault. However, he also said that we might have to meet somewhere else for the lesson next time because he didn't like my roommates and he said as soon as he walked in the door, he could tell the spirit wasn't right in our apartment. I am so grateful for good home teachers. Even though it was hard to concentrate in my apartment during the lesson, I was still able to feel the spirit, and I also think I was supposed to follow them out the door, so that I could know for myself, that i am not imagining what is happening or thinking it is worse than it is.

Sorry this post was a venting post, but I had to get it out. Also, does anyone have any suggestions for what I could do? Everyone I've talked to up here has told me to talk to them about it, but it is 5 against 1 so I don't know how well that would go over. Besides that, I might just blow up and give them the Edward glare. :)

I got a picture with Captain Jack Sparrow!!! :)

Alright, needless to say, this has been an AWFUL year for me, and for others I'm sure. So you can imagine how surprised and excited I was when I got the group e-mail from AnJ saying they wanted to go to Disneyland!!! :) I haven't been since we went with the original family, aka Broderick's and Sadorus's. That was when NO ONE was married except Danny and Pila and my parents. We had a blast then, and so I knew as we went this time it would be amazing as well. Here are my highlights of the trip...
*Talking about the trip with everybody beforehand, trying to be quiet so Mason didn't hear us..
*Talking to Mason on the phone the night before the trip, "We are going to Disneyland Addie. And guess what? You are coming too!" Oh really... :)
*Getting lost on the way there! Thank you Toby for being able to read the map..HAHA
*Seein the GIANT California letters by the entrance of California Adventures, and even better they looked like Candy corn..let me help you to finish it.
*Riding Heimlich's train, I know it is for little kids, but his quotes were just SO funny. "I'm a cute little chu chu train. AUHH, I wish candy corn were a vegetable."
*RIDING THE CALIFORNIA SCREAMIN' COASTER. That was my favorite ride. So when you get on it, it takes you around by the pier and then stops you and counts down from 5. So I'm sitting next to dad, and mind you I've never been on this ride before. And as it counts down, it reminds me of the Rockin' Roller Coaster at Disney World. Then I remember it counts down too...and then it shoots you off at about 65 mph...I glanced over at Dad and his head was leaned forward looking around. So I yell to him "Dad, you might want to put your head back" and lucky he did, because shortly after, it sent us rocketing up this awesome hill. He thanked me after for telling him to put his head back. ☺
*Tower of Terror It was fun to ride that again, and to see how mom reacted on it. ☺ I thought for sure she'd be hanging onto Clint..
*Watching Mason get excited about everything, like seeing Tuh Mater without the Tuh in the Pixar Parade.
*Getting back to the hotel and watching Mason just fall right asleep because he was so tired.
*Watching AnJ and Clint trying to get Cooper to sleep in between them. Meanwhile, he just keeps saying Hi, Hi, Hi, Hi☺ Mom and me had to turn the other way to keep from laughing..
*Watching Mason...and Mandy pour over the map and tell us what the plan was for the second day..
*Mmmmm, the Raspberry White Chocolate cookie I got from the shop by the Winnie the Pooh Ride...Shout out to Garrett for telling me about this amazing cookie. So amazing in fact, that I bought another one for the ride home.. ☺
*Shout out to my ride buddy Toby. If I didn't have her, I would have ridden mostly by myself and where is the fun in that? ☺
*Seeing and getting a picture with Captain Jack Sparrow...Okay I know he wasn't Johnny Depp, but hey he was still the character and he looked almost exactly like him. Also, his mannerisms were the same. And he called me Darlin'☺☺☺ You can't compete with that..Ohhh, he was so HOT☺I was just trying to think of the other characters I saw, but I'm having a hard time doing so because Captain Jack just keeps popping in my head...☺
*The good food we had. The clam chowder was amazing, especially on that night because it was cold. It definitely blows Lagoon out of the water..☺
*The Pirates of the Caribbean Ride. That thing is awesome, especially now with Captain Jack in it three times. ☺
*Seeing everyone get wet on Grizzly Rapids and of course Splash Mountain...Poor Pila, she was in the front every time..
*Getting my amazing souvenirs including cookies, a pirate's blanket, a pirate's bracelet, thank you Toby, Mickey earrings, and a Mickey bracelet,thank you mom.
Seeing everyone's reactions to the Lego land show we saw..."Walk like an Egyptian.." HAHA
*Clint and me going on the mini log ride at Lego land and splashing everybody because most adults don't ride together if you catch my drift..something about weighing the log down..☺ HA
*THE OCEAN. I LOVE THE OCEAN. It was so fun to go there and see Masue and Tupa's reactions to it.
*Danny rolling up his pants and walking around in the ocean with the water up to his waist and sometimes higher. ☺
*Seeing the shark in the water. That was really cool it got within two feet of Clint one time. We think it was either a nurse shark or a leopard shark.
*Seeing Cooper trying to get in the water, he kept running back to get in it.
*Taking Mason in the water, and helping him jump the waves.
*Seeing the hot lifeguard clean his jet ski. He was tan and buff. ☺
*Mmmm, eating at Joe's Crab Shack. We wanted to try eating somewhere we've never eaten before, but that didn't work out. But hey, you can never go wrong with Joe's.
*I didn't want to come home...but I did, and now I'm wondering when we get to go back??? ☺

It's almost here...LADIES NIGHT!!! except, not the one you might be expecting.. :)

So many of you know that I'm working at Deseret Book and recently I started working in their Lion House Pantry. Auhhh the joys of food service..NOT! Anyway, this coming weekend is General Conference, and usually that means for me awesome talks, ladies night with the clan, (if you will), ice cream after the Priesthood session, and scones on Sunday morning.
However this time, I will not be with the clan for ladies night, unless we eat after four and before five. I work at Deseret Book from 5-9:30. Why so late you ask? Because it is the dreaded Ladies Night. Dun dun dun! :) So apparently, every General Conference, Deseret Book has a night for all the women to come to while the men are at Priesthood. The first 100 women there get a wall hanging that is pretty cute. There are a lot of sales on books. Also, we have a drawing for a grand prize that happens to be a pretty big picture of Christ holding a little girl, and she is holding a lamp. It was painted by Simon Dewey and I think it is entitled, "Let Your Light So Shine." All in all it could be a fun night right? HAHA, I think the only way to describe it, is CRAZY!!! There are a plethora of women crammed tight in there, and all I have to say is JUST PLAIN INSANE!!!! But if you need something to do that night you are welcome to join my co-workers and me for the night of CRAZY LADIES! :)

44 odd things about Addie

1. Do you like blue cheese? Who wouldn't!!??
2.. Have you ever smoked? Nope.
3. Do you own a gun? Heck yes I do!! The Super Soaker 2000, or as Tim and I christened it...Bessy :)
4. What flavor Kool Aid is your favorite? I don't remember what one is my favorite because I haven't had it since I was little...
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Sometimes, it depends on why I'm going in...
6. What do you think of hot dogs? I like them when I am in the mood for them.
7. Favorite Christmas movie? The Christmas Story, and the first two Home Alone's..
8. Favorite thing to drink in the morning? Water
9. Can you do push ups? Yes. I think I can still do the manly push-ups although I haven't tried in a while..
10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? My bracelet Mandy got me from Hawaii! It is so original. :)
11. Favorite hobby? A few, I like reading, golf, snowboarding, basketball, etc..
12. Do you have A.D.D.? YEP! Those are the first three letters of my name! :)
13. What's one trait you hate about yourself? I'd have to agree with Mandy on this one, I can and have been lately very negative..
14. Middle name? Dawn...you know like Breaking Dawn :)
15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.1) Lame, I don't want to deal with customers at work.. 2)Why can't people be more clear about their feelings? 3) My eyes hurt, I should probably take my contacts out ASAP.
16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? 1) Water 2)Milk 3) Orange Juice
17. Current worry? Once again, I wish people would be more clear about their feelings..
18. Current hate right now? Can't say, I would seem too mean and people might judge me for it.. :)
19. Favorite place to be? At home with my family
20. How did you bring in the New Year? Went to Thaifoon with Brady (the jerk) and then we went and saw the Waterhorse (good movie)
21. Where would you like to go? Back to London, I actually met this guy at work the other day that was from England, I helped him learned how much our coins are worth. He told me when I come to England he'll help me with their moneys. :) He was pretty cute too!
22. Name three people who will complete this: Beats me...
23. Do you own slippers? yeah! Sock monkey slippers
24. What shirt are you wearing? Bright green and bright blue and it has Nike across the front
25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Wouldn't know, never slept on them..
26. Can you whistle? Of course
27. Favorite color? Red, black, green, silver, purple.
28. Would you be a pirate? Heck yes I would, If Captain Jack Sparrow could be my matey :)
29. What songs do you sing in the shower? I don't sing in the shower, but I do occasionally sing while blowdrying my hair...
30. Favorite Girl's Name? Chloe, Lana, who knows?
31. Favorite boy's name? Carter, Nick, :)
32. What's in your pocket right now? Lint..
33. Last thing that made you laugh? Ice Age 2: the meltdown, I actually thought it was stupid, but there were a few funny parts.
34. What vehicle do you drive? A speedy little Silver Mazda 3. She's my baby! Grrrrr :)
35. Worst injury you've ever had? Fell on my wrist, I had to wear a brace for a little while.
36. Do you love where you live ? I LOVE my home and I LOVE Bountiful!
37. How many TVs do you have in your house? Four
38. Who is your loudest friend? Cheri LaMoure my roommate at school.
39. Do you have any pets? Heck no
40. Does someone have a crush on you? I'm thinking so, perhaps 3 boys that might have a crush, or are at least interested...hmmmm.
41. Your favorite book(s): The Harry Potter series, Twilight series, The Great and Terrible series, I just love reading!
42. Do you collect anything? Music :)
43. Favorite Sports Team? Utah Jazz, of course BYU Cougars, Did someone say Shaun White aka the flying tomato...Okay, so he isn't on a team unless you count the USA, but he is an awesome snowboarder!
44. What song do you want played at your funeral? Hmmm, I don't know, maybe if I'm lucky I'll be twinkled... :)

Guitar Hero to the rescue...among other things!

Alright! I'm finally back to life! Sorry it took me so long to blog again, but I feel I had a good reason for not "feeling" like it. BUT...Addie's here, never fear! :) So for those of you who don't know which I'm sure all of you do...the wedding is off. Brady was doubting that it was right because we were fighting more than normal and so we took a break the last week of April and that Tuesday night he felt the strongest confirmation that it was wrong. I still felt it was right still, but nevertheless he broke up with me on May 2nd. The week following that, he took a girl out from his ward that he's been friends with for a year or two and now to make the drama even better, he's engaged. Talk about quick. He is not the Brady I know, but I can't change anything. Also, I'm living with his sister which makes things even harder, almost unbearable. So that is basically what happened if anyone is wondering, which I'm sure you probably are, and I want to tell you because you are my family and you care about me. Anyway, this is the HARDEST thing I have ever been through. There were days I didn't want to live anymore, the pain hurt too bad. I feel like he took my heart and threw it on the floor and it shattered into a million pieces. I haven't even started picking it up yet. That is how I've felt. I barely remember that first week after he broke up with me. I guess the point is though, I'm getting through it. I'm doing so much better than I was. There are still hard days and hard moments sometimes, but I now feel like there is life back in me. The things that got me through the hard parts were: my family, (Thank you so much for everything, you stuck with me even when I treated you bad because that is all I felt. You still pressed on just being there when I needed you. :)), my mom has been amazing through this whole ordeal. She's been worrying about dad, but yet she was still there for me. My roommates have been amazing, especially my roommate Cheri. She's been there when I needed someone to talk to, and she let me play her Guitar Hero when I needed it. It really helps with anger issues, just so you all know. I recommend it to everyone because it is a blast! :)

My bishop has helped a lot as well. Thank you to everyone who has supported me through this tough time in my life. I'm still working on it, it isn't over yet. I think Brady is an idiot right now. He isn't acting normal because that engagement is so fast, but there's nothing I can do about it now, except maybe take a picture of his car, put it in the want ads with For sale for $200 and do not call til after 10:30! :) My religion teacher that knows Brady thought of that one. You won't believe the pranks I've thought of. Muhaha! But anyway, my time with him is done and now I need to take care of myself. So thank you for being patient with my lack of posts, and I want you to know that I am back on the blogging wagon, so look for more posts when I have something to write about! :)

Love you guys!

BULLSEYE!

Okay, so I haven't been the best at blogging, but
I'm trying okay. I've just been really busy with
classes and I'm tired. I know that's no excuse but
take it anyway! :) Anyway, here's a new blog for ya'll. So Brady and I are taking an archery class. Random I know, but still quite fun! I'm not very good at it, in fact I can aim but it usually doesn't go where I plan it to, note, check out my picture. Today I shot two arrows and on my third, I attempted to aim perfectly at the bullseye, but of course as usual, I'm off. However, not in the way I planned on. I, as you can see, shot right through one of my arrows, right through the middle of the shaft. Now that's talent! :) Everyone in the class was congratulating me on that perfect shot. So I just took it in stride, only telling Brady and the T.A. that I didn't mean to do it that way. Now the question is...should I hang the "one" arrow on my wall or should I take out the top arrow so I can keep using it, that way I won't have to buy more arrows? That is the question of the day! The Poll is open! :)